The Drawing of a Dream

                          …In disheveled
                                  in student housing
                           kitchen and cupboard
doors leading
                           to the private quarters

alone                                      
             Ahgreyeuss Pahn
                  is an anxious stranger
A woman comes in from privacy                                                          
freckled dark                                                                 

to eat toast                                                                                 
ignoring Pahn…

…Pahn walks through a door                                                                    
to find a studio                                                                
large                  modern..
bone white walls
easels
canvas 
 drop-cloth

A photographer takes pictures                                                      
of his girlfriend
while Pahn gets in his way                                

Pahn looks out over the fields and woods
lies down     covering himself                       
                           with a white sleeping bag
He listens                                                           
to other rooms                        
through the heating vent

The photographer (now an artist) is a little annoyed
but Pahn seems to have       a place here—
no longer            a stranger…                             

…Now he possesses the place                        
                                              modern mansion
wearing a suit                       
drinking                                    
      looking over his spring estate
expecting friends                   

They arrive in an old station wagon

rusted and muddied
A woman stands near them                                

and though she resembles                               
                                   a pleasant waitress
                                                             that he met in Portland
                                                               at a Thai restaurant
she is                                                                  
in fact          evil                              
and of the             
                                       CIA

She drives a square     business car                      
        and tells Pahn’s friends that they cannot park
in the place where they have parked                                       

and she threatens Pahn also

In disbelief                                                                                 
Pahn is livid                                                                         
and throws her to the ground
to hurt her
                             tearing her clothes
and lying on top of her
But stopping to wonder                                              
at his own actions

Pahn ceases                                                              

thinking                                         
“I will get in trouble
and

it is not what I mean”

So he forgets…

                               ….he walks
leaving home and room-mates
to hitchhike…                        

              …the university is his grammar school
He hitchhikes there      many times                                              
remembering every ride                                       
Wayland comes by          and asks about the drivers                
and Pahn says                                                               

“They are all good and friendly
                                                                     and come soon”…

…Pahn is no place now                               
There is nothing behind him

he looks only
and sees
from no age
no shape
but speaks
to impressions of
people near

                      Penelopeya

               Ahnjehlia
                       and another woman
                                      his future bride?
A pair of hands       show drawings
Images       from his childhood
                              a spotted dog
Excited                                                                
Pahn asks Penelopeya

                                          “Did we have a spotted dog?”

The drawing comes animated
and a dancing woman crosses the lawn in front of their big
                                                                white
                                                                                           house
She is                                                                    
mother           
sister                
and someone else      

Pahn holds a basketball                                    
and he is happy                      

Mother/sister/other                                            
throws the ball high

              past hoop and houses
and Pahn exclaims                               

“It is as a dream
It will go higher than it could and come
down slowly like in my dreams of falling and
never touch the ground”

so it falls                                                                                
metamorphosing                                                   
to freeze into the drawing                         as a many colored mushroom                  

And Pahn asks                                                                         
“Who drew this wonderful picture of a dream”…

…It is in a book                                                                      
He is in the library                                                  
with Galaksaura               
He says

“I didn’t know you animated
Did you draw this”

“Yes”
She says                                                          

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