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Delivery

.…with Aiks
             observing
across                     a distance

a vehicle           

       coming slowly

The vehicle stops                         
by a culvert       nearby
and men get out                 
retrieving two bodies                                                   
from the trunk and                      
dumping

                                                them over the side

They roll lightly down               
the bare slope                   
into a dry arroyo

changing as they turn

               into two young giraffes

a larger           
and a smaller                 

Standing up they look                    

                                  curiously
at Pahn and Aiks

healthy

a girl
and a boy—    

Eeunks                                                        

and Daphnis
                                                     
 
 

The Day After Halloween

                Pahn has seen two deer
                         bounding into the woods
 

       down by his friend’s house
and has followed them                      
into the damp dead grasses

              and blackberry hummocks

Pahn has dreamed recently

                        of the deer in the foothills...walking
                     through the Fescue...among
                            the broken oaks
the leaves falling                                                                          


The day after Halloween
 the deer are grazing

              in Pahn’s neighborhood
 

                 on concrete
asphalt
wandering with resignation
through humanity

                         the children
running with them in a herd

                                                     jumping over fences
          eating the lawns
 

                Pahn walks over to separate
                                       Daphnis and Eeunks from the flock
 as he did                                
                    when he brought them home
taking them to the word of drywall

He tells them                                                             
the deer are still wild

            and dangerous to kids

He sits down                                                          
with other parents
commenting

                                     that more people are hurt each year
by deer                  

than by bear
 He regrets                                                      
that he has not raised them
in the wilderness
coated in pine needles                
not knowing of

                      toy stores
                   bubble gum
                          motorbikes
             soda
             television



Reclining

                             pressed against Aiks
Pahn wants to be inside her
all of the time

                         though he might only appease his body
occasionally

       he would be entangled with her
permanently...

He is living in the world of people
    looking into their lives
alternately
exploring               
and shunning


He sits at a white                     
round table
next to Eeantha for whom
he cares

                 and
                                in whom he trusts
and Mehlia whose body he craves
whose light humor
and smiling face

                     he has thought might go
                            with a troubled mind

She hands him her box
which he examines
trying to understand its purpose
He is led to believe it is                                                  
for burning wood
He looks for the hole     to put in fuel

 but one shouldn’t light a fire
in a wooden box


And he looks closer                    

                                    because he is interested in her puzzle

Touching

                                      putting his fingers in the slots
she opens suddenly              
filled with paper
and hotdogs

Digging deeper
Pahn finds she has a plant                                     
among the shredded news

which he knows is intended

                                                     for the succulent bowl
of Aiks
.
.

The Light of Day

.Pahn has been to the coast again
and is coming back in the dark

Reaching the summit
with the blue slope

                                     ahead
that drops

                 to the inland city 
              looking shiny and slippery
He decides to slide                                                       
because he is tired of walking

Lying on his back

                        like the sleep
                                         that he is sleeping
he begins to slip           downward                                     

                   slowly at first
                                picking up speed
 

                               He is afraid of going too fast
                                      of loosing control
                            but the road is smooth
             and wide
and as he gains speed

                     he gains confidence
Soon he is thrilled                   
racing down the freeway                                     
to his hometown                                            
in the valley                                           

At the bottom                                                                                  
he comes to a stop                                                   

in a retail district
It is the middle of the night

                  and most of the shops are closed

He is hungry                                    
and needs to get home

He walks across the street
to look for a telephone
but reaching the other side
he finds that there is a convenience store

                                         that is still open

He goes inside                                                               
feeling a little awkward                                     
wearing only a big down jacket              
with wads of money in the pockets

naked underneath
The jacket is quite warm                                   
but there is cold air                                  
that slips in around his thighs
as he moves                     

He glances at the cashier

      and walks to the far end
                where there are magazines
The erotic ones           .have been removed
He thumbs through a thick one

               wondering what it might contain
                                       wondering if the cashier is watching
He puts it down again                       

                                             quickly
                   because it’s not what he needs

He finds himself squatting

                           by the gumball machine
when two young women come in

One of them stands   by the counter
and Pahn gets up   to talk to her
They say a few words                                                
She is friendly                                                
and smiling
but shows no real interest in him



He    is    driving now
Aiks has left him with

               Daphnis
                                and Eeunks
and her cousin

                                       Phthona
                 to tour the tectonic mountain
 Pahn has examined his maps                                        
and determined what he wants to find

and they set out                                            
through the dry                    oaken hills…

…Soon they come to the outcroppings                           
and begin to ascend                             

Rounding a bend
they suddenly see the great rock                                 
and stop at the overlook                              

                        for pictures

Pahn picks up the camera                                                         
and puts little Daphnis                                    
down on the stones                                  
admonishing him                                               
to stay away from the edge
and stands by the rail
looking       at the vertical               wall    of stone

                                                              with frothing water
falling from the top                                                

The cliff is beige
and knobby

              with white mineral deposits
                                                                       near the water
and there are people
walking below and above it

                                                  climbing stairs up its sides

Strolling on the path                                                     
at the cliff’s base
They observe a group of people
descending a near-vertical stair                     

As the first reaches a point
about twenty feet above
he trips                                                
doing a complete flip
as he falls                                     
to the bottom                                                                
crumpling on his feet                                        

He is shaken                                                                    
but walks away unhurt                                           

To Pahn’s shock                                                                  
the two men following the first

                                                     jump off the ledge intentionally
doing swan dives       onto the bedrock
Pahn is sure          they must be badly hurt                   
but they too   get up                and                                                
                                                  walk away
.
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The Deity of Calm Waters

.…on a steep slope Pahn has stopped
for lunch

                               April grassy
                    still

It is a picnic with
his family
They wander   about

              the incline    talking of
              family matters

Going to the barbecue
for hamburgers            Daphnis climbs up into the rocks

                                        as is his inclination
                        and Pahn follows him to catch
            him if he falls

But Pahn keeps climbing up

                                                                to the University…

…and down again                                                     
past picnic and family                  down
to the river          in the canyon

He comes out of the woods

            onto a trestle   and crossing
              to the shade   he climbs
           over the creosote
            timbers   down
into the river                     

He swims underwater

his feet crossed like

                                        an otter   upstream in the clear light

While sitting on the silty bank
Djuturna
her chin in her hand smiles
her unending smile and

Pahn finds himself lying beneath her
her knees on either side
of his waist     swishing

             her vulva against him
            to erect his sex

and it rises      when
he holds her face

              and her shoulders
in his hands…

…Again         he is driving with Aiks
The brakes are not adequate
he wonders how such a large vehicle
could have been designed unable
to stop its own momentum

She tells him he must turn right
and he slows down just enough
to avoid rolling over

She says he must turn left now
but there is a line of cars
in the left turn lane

He doesn’t see how
he will be able

                           to stop the car in time

The brakes are only reins of leather
that require all his strength
           to stop before they crash…
.
.

Phoebe Ann (A Quiet Simple Person)



With his son...Daphnis
casting through the trees
into dark and murky water

taking the line from him
to un-stick it from the bottom
Pahn pulls up a large object
that looks like a rock
but is too light to be stone

It must be Styrofoam
that has been stained
to the core
by the mud
of all these years
of lying on the bottom

A woman across the lake
single
and childless
not distracted by love
focused
professional
is quietly doing well            She walks by

                                           passing out of sight

Pahn takes the tackle
baiting the grapnel hook
with Feta cheese

Wading into the water         A teenage girl comes by
to cast further                        walking across the water

                                                       greeting in French
he swims back                                                 
to the deeper end                      A second comes by

                                                          speaking French
and casts his line                        with a few Spanish words
 

                                                  Pahn asks her if she is American
There are two large                 and she says “yes”
beautiful                                          (Her mix of languages
dark fish                                          gave her away)
circling around Pahn                                                        

One of them strikes the bait                                           
and he yanks the line                                           
to settle the hook                                          

He doesn’t see at first      Pahn is looking for something
where he has hooked it                                                        
but when he takes it            Egairia as a little girl
to show his family                  is walking around him
his wife (Aiks) asks him       Eendekoi as a little boy
why he had to catch it             is walking around him too

And when he asks                   The children are running
if he should let it go                  back      and forth
she says                                                   
that having                       Pahn is rummaging around
caught it                                   in a shoe box
damaged it                         for a present
they should eat it              for Egairia

                                          and Eendekoi
And then he sees                                 
that the hook has torn off                                  
one of its gills                  among the toy cars
showing its many tiny bones  harmonicas
and the tiny heart inside            skeletons

                                                             plastic hearts
                                                               and livers and lungs
 

                                                   Finally he looks down
                                                   and sees at his side
                                                 a little girl
                           with a rifle
on her shoulder—

Annie Oakley
as a child

                  and he thinks

this is the perfect gift
                                                 for them
.
.

Empath

.
…called to the back yard

     going around the side
                          of the house
                                       of his childhood
Pahn sees Athehna                                    
with Yaohwa
and stops to listen to them               

They are speaking

                                 of ordinary things
                                in ordinary language
                       but in the light   of the subconscious
clearly discernable
they are exchanging information

                                                and emotion
                                                   non-verbally

Pahn is feeling left out                                
having missed already
the gossip
and now watching Yaohwa
by chance

                        and by intuition
                                feeling Athehna
Pahn is genuinely jealous                           

He listens in the knowledge                             
that he has this same               
communicative sense
and gathers from the air

                        what is happening to her

Yaohwa leaves

And Pahn takes her aside to ask

                            to be sure

“Are you saying
That you are pregnant?”

She nods                                                 
and the two of them go inside

He speaks to her      for a while                    
trying to determine                 
if he should stay for her
or if she’d rather he left

He can barely feel their separateness
in the open room
but in the passing moments                       
they find a time to pull their minds

                                                                   apart…

…and Pahn is outside again

Ahbnoba comes                                                        
and asks Pahn to turn off the sprinklers
so that her guests                             
will not get wet                      

Pahn goes around front                                  
with Eeunks and Daphnis
to show them how it is done

He is perplexed                                                
that Yaohwa is running sprinklers
in the winter

Trying the first valve
The water comes on around him              

and he is soaked
…                         
.
.

The Body of Charro's Daughter

.
In Hawaii at the beach    behind a house
that he was told    is Charro’s
Pahn saw a young woman                           
with a compact    and curvy body

She was with a man                                        

                              undoubtedly her husband
who had speared a big fish    and
was showing it to their son

He had classic    Mediterranean good looks
the tan of leisure                                     
the physique                             
of well regulated sport

Pahn couldn’t help wondering                        

      how foreign the woman’s world might seem
if he could know it                     

how she spent her time                                
did she like to cook?                           

           did her mother approve of her husband?
how did she meet him?                     

                     and could she relate to someone like Pahn?


By the dunes

                                      thinking about a movie
                                seeing two fugitives
Michael Caine and Sydney Poitier

                            running into a field
                                joined by a Russian
                       and a tall man
                              their pursuers close behind
 

                     The Russian shoots the tall man  
            then tells himself
                         to slow and confuse

while Pahn runs toward the river    
diving in                                                                 

The river bends

                                           around the head of the hemisphere
                           into an Italian bay

Pahn climbs out of the water

          He can smell the mud flats
and Italian fishing boats are speeding

                                                  to the open water

Walking up the bright sand                                    
to an old and sun-bleached hotel
of Carmel sandstone
Pahn finds a thin woman                            
wearing a scarf skirt                    
speaking English

            in the middle of giving a tour
                                    alone    to herself

She tells of the last owners
of how they put clear glass
in the windows

               because the guests wanted to see the view
 Pahn tries to imagine what was in the windows before                                                           he notices
that the window frames are metal
and very rusted

                     One is missing

He asks her    when they were installed

                Thinking it must have been the thirties
                     when such windows were popular

She walks toward the water
past women in bikinis
climbs into a kayak
paddles around

                                     for a few minutes in the bay
and returns with a bag of tiny biscuits
which she has baked

                                                on the water

She tosses them to Pahn

                                             one at a time
as he tries to catch them

                                            in his mouth

He is hungry    for her    and the biscuits
So she offers him panini

                                               of whole wheat bread
                                      and Prociutto
                                         with cheese 
Pahn thinks to himself that prociutto is left over
from a time when there was no refrigeration




Pahn is in coastal California
someplace like Davenport
with Aiks, Eeunks and Daphnis

They are staying in a 19th century hotel
in the center of town
dragging up their luggage
checking out the room

         eating in the restaurant  
 

    Leaving    and returning       to the restaurant
 

                                they find the hostess topless
 

                                   and the waitress naked

Looking at the                 waitress

                                 Pahn expects to be excited
but she seems unfriendly

                                  and he finds no arousal

But the                 hostess                                       
who is in the body of Charro’s daughter
calls Pahn into an empty room                        
and hugs him

At this point

           a tall middle aged man
                                with a cowboy hat and plaid shirt
                                                          his neck
                            red and wrinkled
    comes into the room
    admonishing Pahn
                            in a vaguely threatening manner

But Pahn ignores him                                      
being too happy

                                in the arms of the hostess
             to be distracted
.
.

Channels

.
In the mixed green
marshes of sleep       trying

                   to understand the         waterways
               that wind under         bridges
                    through the                 grass
and willows

      Pahn walks
                           into the pavement
of work

          passing the           elephants
and the bosses           finding
a place to sit                     
to let go

                 annoyed
                                             by the       crudeness
                                                   of the      coworkers
                                         and their     contests

In the warehouse       he walks                                                    
into the middle
where the people walk
like a stream
between the banks of equipment
and shelves of goods
with Daphnis who asks
if
it is OK to be there
and Pahn tells him
It’s where they should be
because this

                                                          is where the angels walk ...

... Riding in the wooded hills    

 with three angelic women
                                                             Vehsta is driving
                                                                      Ahlaveena sits quietly
and with Pahn in the back seat

                                                              Piteuss gossips sweetly

Now they are at a hearing
where

                                                          Vehsta makes her presentation
                                            and they are free
to return       deemed innocent



Vehsta is leaving                                                        
Pahn holds her head against his chest
in his arms                                         
kissing her hair
hoping she will know
that she is loved

They measure

                            the straight     road back
with a tape
laughing
and joking

And finally Pahn
is led
to a Greek ruin
where among the blocks and columns
Drew Barrymore
is lying
bathed in vulva light

And there he lies with her
hiding the remote
so that no one can change
the channel



On the bridges
with their balustrades

                                    over the sloughs
                                        and vernal pools
         Pahn mills    with the people
                                of nature
                                        among the      middle aged
angel men
stiff and identical
like avian gargoyles
of gray stone
.
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ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS


Some of these poems originally appeared in the following publications

Avocet
Dream International Quarterly
mojo risin'
The Muse Apprentice Guild (The MAG)
Transfer

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